Rule of universe
you cannot have that kind of feeling towards the guy
your girl's dated before or crush (ed).
I've read this from somewhere,
'you can't control what you feel, but you can always control your actions'
( something like that )
Haa~ I hate myself for being insensitive.
I feel so stupid and guilty that I wish I could just disappear.
Like a fairy tale Little Mermaid. Vanished.
But one thing for sure,
I don't want to hurt any one so I'll stop.
What I meant by stop is that I'll never talk about anything
related to the guy anymore.
I'll stop this feeling.
It's never happen. Never feel it. Never need it.
Just like the lyric's in the Moondust,
" ..I long to hear your voice, but still I make the choice,
to buried my love, in the moondust... "
This ends here. I don't even care anymore
and I'll continue to not care about this feeling anymore.
It never happen.
All I need is to keep on deny-ing.
A little bit of avoiding.
Last but not least, never mention the name if it is not necessary,
It's not like I'm the master of faking feeling.
I think about in every aspect and decide the hardest thing in my life
for the sake of people around me and me myself.
What about me? Am I will be okay with this?
I don't know.
I don't care anymore.
Painful or hurt maybe but I'm used to it so I'm fine.
I'll stop
:)
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