Once in awhile...

Assalamualaikum

Does age plays an important role in our changes in emotion?

I really don't know why

I'm not cry so easily unless I am in severe pain 

like bleeding for example

But as I grow up

I cry easily and now even from listening to beautiful song

I shed a bucket of tears !

Sentimental 

Yeah that best describe what I feel currently.

Lots of song that make me cry but one that struck me the most is

Read All About It // Emeli Sande

I think I know what is the main course towards that tears,

That denial feelings that I keep bottled up inside

When you feel like you want to talk about it to someone

But at the same time you're afraid what would they think of you

you feel like 'does it okay to talk about it?'

Everyone have their own problem

and you end up keep it 

because you don't want cause trouble to others

Yet,

It's killing you slowly, 

Feels like you wanna scream and shout it out from the bottom of your heart

Yeah

Because I can't scream neither shout it out loud

that is why I cry and just shout silently

while I told to myself over and over again

(I seems kind depressed right?)

'It's okay It's fine'

'You're gonna be okay'

Well, I don't really feel so terrible tho

just that something heavy on my chest but still you can live on

like usual

Once in awhile

I guess cry might be the best solution

when you can't find other way to solve your problem 

You'll feel a bit of relieved

like 1/4 of your problem is gone and also helps you cool down a little

cry hard.

sleep.

wake up.

Start a new day and be strong.